Something Different In Me

“Am I too busy chasing,
A temporary fortune,
That my priorities get lost along the road?”

“The seasons bring their moments,
They linger for an instant,
They never wait for you
To pay the debt you owe.”

The age-old debate among women about whether or not to work outside the home or inside the home is not really age-old. Rather it’s new…feminism has it’s beginning in the Industrial Revolution and the question has been “controversial” since.

Compared to how old our universe is…it’s nothing, a blip. But then again so is the history of this country. And the history of humanity. Heck, this earth is young compared to the age of the universe.

We’re nothing. Really. Ashes in the wind. Except for this.

“When I leave I,
I want to leave a memory filled with love,
The kind you don’t forget,
When I go I,
I want to be known as one who lived
With no regret.”

I wanted a career. I had a career. I made the decision to end my career after the girl was born. Yet I feel like I have so much in me to share with those outside of my home still, and I feel that she respects me for it.

So I ride the roller coaster, I tip-toe on the balance beam, I feel inadequate almost all the time, and I am exhausted. But so be it. It’s my wont.

“I want them to see what a glorious thing,
She had so much to gain,
But she gave it away.
I want them to see there’s something different in me,
That’s when I’m gonna be – free.”
JJ Heller

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