July 26, All By Myself

I found myself under very unusal circumstances last weekend.

I was all by myself. Alone all weekend.

On Saturday, the boy got on a plane to Honduras very early in the morning. The husband got on a plane in the afternoon for Dallas. And I took the girl to the farm as usual – and I haven’t seen her since.

I didn’t realize how much emotional energy I put into my family. I admit when the girl called yesterday to see if she could spend another night at Emma-girl’s house, I said yes very quickly.

Every morning I wake up, my mind thinks there’s several sleeping bodies down the hallway and I have to quietly make my way around the house until everyone is awake. It feels different to think differently.

This morning I woke up and blasted Time to Say Goodbye by Andrea Bocelli and Sarah Brightman. Their beautiful voices filled the house. No one to was here to protest.

I want to say I spent the weekend creatively and productively. I didn’t. I watched television the entire weekend, ensconsed in my chair, with the remote in hand.

For you see, I have been sick since last Tuesday. Not just a little summer cold, but knock-you-off-your feet sick. But I continued to stay on my feet because I had no choice. I felt a little bit like the cone flower with its burnt edges. This weekend was a necessary healing time-out.

I am still sick. Today I will drag myself to the doctor’s office if she’ll see me.

Have a wonderful week, mine is off to a good start…

Textures by Joy St. Claire. I purchased her texture set to help her pay veterinary bills for her beloved dog, Maggie.

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